Shopping

I really don't like shopping. I often say I must be missing the 'girl gene' b/c I don't like this favorite American past-time. However, here is the deep dark secret. I hate shopping b/c I am embarrassed that I can not find things that fit me. Usually the top size in the stores are way too tight, assuming I can get them on in the first place. Now some places like Old Navy have made life a little easier by carrying bigger sizes, but that doesnt make my size any better. If I felt good about myself I honestly think I would not care about the number on the clothes. But..... I don't feel good about myself. So I need to work harder and eat better. Because I want to be able to shop like a normal person. But more importantly because I want to feel better about myself, I want to feel better emotionally & physically and I want to be healthy. For today I am excited about the mountain in front of me. I hope I can keep my motivation going...... For The Rest Of My Life.....