Disgrace

This week has been really bad for me. I cant imagine what the weigh in tomorrow will be like. I have eaten poorly almost everyday. And mostly for no good reason. I hope someday I only eat bad when I have an event or something to celebrate. I ate over my points almost everyday, and I am not sure why. Maybe b/c I am bored with myself. Maybe I am rebelling and do not want to get my money's worth out of WW. Maybe b/c I cannot make responsible food choices w/o a gun to my head. Maybe secretly I do not want to lose weight or I am afraid?? I have no idea, but hopefully I can figure it out soon. Because everyday I eat poorly I am mad at myself - - b/c I feel like I am not even trying. Keeping within the points is not that hard, why am i purposefully eating crap i don't even want. i really think the numbers tomorrow are going to be brutal. ok - enough whining........hopefully next week i will not be so weak & i will make better choices & maybe not be so upset with myself.